So today, I woke up ill again, managed to crawl into my mother's bed with the cat and sleep until 1pm. It felt pretty good, just sleeping in the sunlight like the cat. We have a cleaner who comes every Thursday to do all the things my Mother can't do in her busy schedule, and it sometimes feels like a little fairy has come and cleaned when I was asleep, ahaha. She left a little note saying she hoped I got well soon, which was nice, as even though she has been here, she hasn't seen me as I've been in deep sleep trying to sleep off my pain.
I thought with the nice weather, it'd mean I was going to have a good day. Turns out it was half-half.
I woke to the news of the Versailles hiatus thing, and geez... It stung, but even now, I haven't shed a single tear. I don't even know why. I love Versailles, and maybe because it was of me being so sad yesterday, I'm still confused as to why I'm not crying..
I just hope for them, that with this hiatus, they can do what they want, and become happier in the process. I mean, they've come out with a new anniversary album thing, a new look, everything.. It seems surreal for them to just come out of the blue and say all of these things. Whatever happens, I'll support their decision... And on another note, Versailles, bring out your ROSE PV already, geez.
But as the day went on, the new Gazette PV previews started coming out. As a fan of this new 'high-tech' era of the Gazette, I'm looking forward to DIVISION. I haven't watched the previews too much, as the initial hype has faded, but from all the sixth guns spazzing, I'm waiting contently for the end of August.
I'm still happily waiting for the 8th of August, as I'll have An Cafe's new album in my hands, after 2 years of waiting. I've heard the new amazing blue PV has aired on Japanese TV, and I'm so excited. I think when I see it, I will possibly cry, no matter the outcome of the quality of the music.
Even though it's around 110 days until the London An Cafe live, I smile inside, knowing I'll meet my first bias, after waiting for 4 years. I'm expecting a lot more shrieks and tears than I did with Versailles, and I'm sorry for anyone who has to stand near me.
I got 'dolled up' for the first time in a long time today too. I applied my falsies, did my hair and make-up, and had a good time. It felt really nice, as it felt like I was getting back to my old self, before my illness started to occur. It takes me back to happier times, and then I kinda realise I'm getting sad over nostalgia, ahaha.
I'm just waiting now for any plans to pull through. I want to have fun with my close friend (私の姉), and get all dressed up, get fangirly, and do some cheap purikura in my town (it's all it's good for tbh). I just hope that I can wake up normally in the mornings and just do the things we want to do, instead of waking early, and sleeping into the afternoon to erase my pain, that's my biggest worry. I haven't slept 'normally' in my bed since March-ish. Being with a friend and sleeping just seems totally rude, but if I don't.. I'll probably be super-sick again. An annoying dilemma I have to face.
One of my close friends at school saw I was sad, so he's being a saint and trying to drag me out to the cinema soon. I'm very thankful to him, for being so sharp with his friends' feelings, and being able to notice things like that. I'm scared though, that he'll think he is being 'friend-zoned', but seeing as he knows about my crush, I'm not panicking just yet. I'm just thankful for him being here right now, even if it's sad he's not going to the same school as me in September.
Ah well, let's see how this next week goes..
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