Little bits. [28/7]

I was going to go out today, but I decided not to a few hours I was supposed to go. I feel sorry for my friend, I know how it feels to be abandoned hours before an arrangement. But I'm under the weather, so I don't want to make him feel upset too. It's been hard to crack a smile lately, even when I'm with my friends. I'm scared they'll all think I'm bored or something, because I have such a monotone look to my face..


I watched the Olympic Opening ceremony last night, and it was very interesting, to say the least. I just wish it was a little longer, that's all. It has many cliches and high points, it would've been nice to've been there in the stadium, I think I could've swapped places with the Queen, she looked like wanted a nap or something..


I slept until 10:30am today, and I'm just feeling sluggish now. I'm off some of the meds I was on before, but because I was dependent on them, my body is just all achey and throbbing. It'll fade, but when I want to do things, it just annoys me.


I also watched Kawaii international today. I love Japanese fashion, so seeing all the Shop assistants all dressed up, it's lovely. They had a little 'Janken' thing in there too, and I won it. They said, 'make a wish!', and of course, it was pretty obvious to me what I wished for. I love watching that programme, it makes me both happy and sad. Happy, because I get to see all the cool fashions, contests, etc; but also sad because I won't be able to experience these fashions, shops and sights first hand for a long time, by the looks of it.


My mother and brother came back from shopping, and my brother was glowing. He got a new Xbox. Of course, as I'm a jealous sibling, I got quite upset. My brother has gotten a lot in the past few weeks. It's his birthday soon, but what he's getting is way more I've ever received for any birthday I've had.
He bought a £300 bike, this £100 Xbox and he's going on a £600 trip to Austria. £1000 spent on him in the course of a month or so? 
I just wish I had a job, so I don't have to sit here and whine over money. I'm just wondering what I'll get for my birthday. I know I won't have £1000 spent on me, that's for sure. I am going to An Cafe's concert in November, but I'm not even going down to London for the whole day, as it's a weekday, and I have school. So I think about £75 will be spent on me for train tickets or something. 
It sounds so stupid and selfish, but my Mother always says to me whenever my brother gets something 'Oh, let him have this, it'll keep him happy.'...
Thanks to know you're thinking of your daughter, when you're denying her the clothes and things she loves. 


Here I go again, looking like a spoilt idiot to the Internet.
You're welcome.