A few days ago, I went out with some old friends. It was really nice, even if I had to battle the bus to get to the local town. I managed to miss my stop because the lady sitting next to me was wrestling with her toddler and a pram, and I didn't want to tap her, incase she snapped at me. So, being the idiot I was, I got off at the same stop at her, which meant I had to walk 15 minutes back to where I had originally wanted to be.
I'm not a very good people person sometimes.
Me and my friends played a strange card game called 'Mafia'. It's a bit like a 'who done it' game, trying to suss out who has 'killed' the townspeople, etc. I proved myself to be a good actress twice by lying my way to success when I was a 'Mafia' member. I'm kinda scared now, as my friends will never want to trust me again, ahaha. We must've spent a good 2 hours or so playing that game both in the park and Caffe Nero. I hope to play it again soon, I love card games.
But these last few days, it's been hot and humid, so I've just been all cranky, full of PMS and upset. I'm still angry over not getting those jobs, so I've been looking at my wishlist of clothes and things, and scoffing. With no job, I'll get none of those things. That's my luck, I guess. That being, I have no luck.
I've also been cranky because after 250 days (or so, my Wii has told me) I stepped back on to Wii Fit to see I've gained 4lbs/1.8kg. I mean, that's not a lot in that course of time, but it still irks me. I'm constantly trying to lose weight, even if the Doctor says I shouldn't. I'm not happy with my body, so of course, I'm always on the course to lose more weight. Seeing my weight go UP makes me feel fat. I'm told 'You're not fat, you're not fat!', but no-one else's words matter. Until I see myself happy in the mirror, I'll starve myelf little by little everyday.
Enough with my whining, have a sad and morbid song I love:
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