Craving. [1/8]

I don't think the last few days have been bad, just anxious.
Yesterday, I went to the opticians to have my eyes tested to see if I can have contacts (again) and to replace the lenses in my frames, as my prescription has changed. It seems my astigmatism in both eyes have gotten worse, so I have to have toric contact lenses to correct that astigmatism. I thought they were going to put some actual contacts in my eyes, but nope. My prescription is so high, they don't have them in the shop. Dammit. The optician just put some yellow dye on my eye, which stung like a bitch. I was seeing hazy yellow lines for hours. Supposedly it showed if my eyes were 'gritty'... Yes, of course, I put gravel into my eye JUST before I came in, sorry 'bout that. /sarcasm


And today, I had to wake up early for my endoscopy. To be honest, the thought of having a camera down my throat didn't make me as anxious as I thought. Until I got into the hospital. I kept getting hot flushes, as the nurses kept talking about a small numbing spray, instead of the sedation I wanted. Thankfully, the doctor saw my panicked look, and I got the sedation I wanted. The whole procedure was over in about 5 minutes, or so I though. I could hardly remember anything, except for the numbing spray they used tasted like banana, ahaha. There was a nurse, sort-of calming me in the procedure. It seemed to fly by, I'm sure I gagged a little, but... Yeah, I was out, eating bourbons and drinking lemonade in no time. 


I should be resting now, but... I bought two Milk lattes, and I've drank them both. Whoops. Hopefully I'll crash when I've come down from my caffeine high, we'll just have to see. I think I'll just spend the day browsing online shops.
I've seen a few items I REALLY want today, but after spending £80 on a polaroid camera on Monday, I think I'll have to wait a few more days. I've had my eyes on two lazyoaf items, a spotted bag and a cute dress; and they're both on sale. The other items include Donald duck 'tattoo tights' and a black bag with wings on it. Aaah, I want it all. I have enough money for most of them, but... Ugh, I wish I could just buy them straight away! I'm definitely an addicted e-shopper... Maybe I'll be able to get them if I get good results in my GCSEs. I've been through all this medical trauma too... Or is that just selfish?


The first world problems of a white teenager girl.
At least I feel a little happier today.