Round, round. [8/8]

Today I managed to lug myself off the chaise lounge to go out with my friends. I was going to yesterday, but I was so anxious, I didn't. I hope people don't think I'm trying to hold plans off because I'm lazy. I'm yet to find someone who finds my anxiety pains normal and understandable. I know I shouldn't let myself be held back by them, but going out and having fun kinda.. Increases my pains? I'm not sure.

I arranged to meet up at 12, so I managed to have a quick nap before then. But in doing so, I slept in and missed the postman with my Polaroid camera. What annoyed me even more, was that my Mother or Father didn't hear the door being knocked, and they are right above the front door, which means that the postman didn't even bother to deliver it properly. I'll just go tomorrow to collect it, even though I could've used it with my friends today. Oh well.

I like going out, but like many people, I don't like the money I spend while I'm out. I managed to splurge most of my money on food, hair dye and a Limited Edition Donald Duck plush toy. Someone needs to keep me away from the Disney Store, I most often come out of there with a Donald Duck toy of some sort. I have 7 plush toys of him now, and they're starting to take over my bed. I mean, I would have more, but all the Donalds I want are in Japan, especially in the Tokyo Disneyland. 
...I'm ranting too much about a goddamn character, someone stop me..

But I guess I did have a good time today. I got a nice sorta.. Shy smile off my crush, as I bought him a Domo-kun pillow. It made me wanna pinch his cheeks, bless him. I bought lots of Krispy Kreme doughnuts, Wonka Nerds and Taffy from the Birmingham Cybercandy, which I have to say.. Brought back a lot of memories of my childhood, eating Nerds 24/7. I swear they've gotten sweeter, or maybe it's just my taste palette, idk. I still managed to go crazy on the e-numbers though..

I'm just patiently waiting at home now. For tomorrow, as I get my camera, for Thursday, as I may be getting my An Cafe CD, and for Saturday, as I'm finally meeting up with one of my closest friends, and bringing her back to my house for a few days. Hopefully I'll be well and happy, but we'll see. My moods seem to change in an instant, unfortunately. I just hope this doesn't make me act like a total idiot.

I bought the purple hair dye I wanted too, so I hope I'll be able to dye it whilst my friend is here. I hope it sticks, as my hair is more or less a faded reddy mess. If not, at least it will have an actual purple sheen to it. Or on the otherhand, I'll just have a purple bathroom... Whoops.

We'll see, maybe things are getting better. Or not.